the truth

Okay, so my marriage sucks right now.
There I've said it.
I have put such a face on and it is so hard. The only people who really know how bad our marriage sucks is my husband and I. Oh, I'm sure the kids have an idea but probably not as bad as it is, at least I hope not.
Oh, and the marriage counselor we've been seeing for 4 months, he has a pretty good idea - obviously, since this past week he told us he really couldn't help us anymore - that's a slap in the face if I've ever seen one. He also told me I need to find some friends and a good support line. Probably so I'm prepared if my husband ever goes through on his little divorce threat he throws at me every other day.
Damn my life sucks right now.
It's not like it happened overnight. Life is hard enough now-a-days, then you add a step-family and different backgrounds and views of parenting and two very strong headed people trying to pull it all together on love and it's sort of a recipe for a disaster.
Then, the icing on the cake was two years ago when this tramp who I thought was a friend felt it would be nice to take advantage of my already fragile marriage and slept with my husband.
So, you could say I have a ton bottled up. and no one to talk with about it.

And now you know the truth.