I received a call from a friend today that another friend of ours recently had a miscarriage. She had asked the friend to call others so that she did not have to go through the uncomfortable conversation when people asked how she was doing (with the pregnancy). My heart is just crying for her and her husband. They have struggled for so long to have children and while I have never experienced this pain myself I can only imagine the sadness she must be feeling right now.
I spoke to another friend during this past week, she has a pre-teen son who has had problems with porn. This problem has now escalated to stealing women's underwear and she is so scared. She is scared for his future and her little girl. I am scared for her and don't know how to help. What a scary thing for such a little boy to be struggling with. Who do you talk to about something like that?
There are so many issues in the world today that people keep secret or don't want to talk about.... struggling relationships, miscarriages, child issues..... Why are people so afraid (myself included) to talk about problems -- I believe there is so much judgement in the world that we have shut others out.... It's just so sad.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
the truth
Okay, so my marriage sucks right now.
There I've said it.
I have put such a face on and it is so hard. The only people who really know how bad our marriage sucks is my husband and I. Oh, I'm sure the kids have an idea but probably not as bad as it is, at least I hope not.
Oh, and the marriage counselor we've been seeing for 4 months, he has a pretty good idea - obviously, since this past week he told us he really couldn't help us anymore - that's a slap in the face if I've ever seen one. He also told me I need to find some friends and a good support line. Probably so I'm prepared if my husband ever goes through on his little divorce threat he throws at me every other day.
Damn my life sucks right now.
It's not like it happened overnight. Life is hard enough now-a-days, then you add a step-family and different backgrounds and views of parenting and two very strong headed people trying to pull it all together on love and it's sort of a recipe for a disaster.
Then, the icing on the cake was two years ago when this tramp who I thought was a friend felt it would be nice to take advantage of my already fragile marriage and slept with my husband.
So, you could say I have a ton bottled up. and no one to talk with about it.
And now you know the truth.
There I've said it.
I have put such a face on and it is so hard. The only people who really know how bad our marriage sucks is my husband and I. Oh, I'm sure the kids have an idea but probably not as bad as it is, at least I hope not.
Oh, and the marriage counselor we've been seeing for 4 months, he has a pretty good idea - obviously, since this past week he told us he really couldn't help us anymore - that's a slap in the face if I've ever seen one. He also told me I need to find some friends and a good support line. Probably so I'm prepared if my husband ever goes through on his little divorce threat he throws at me every other day.
Damn my life sucks right now.
It's not like it happened overnight. Life is hard enough now-a-days, then you add a step-family and different backgrounds and views of parenting and two very strong headed people trying to pull it all together on love and it's sort of a recipe for a disaster.
Then, the icing on the cake was two years ago when this tramp who I thought was a friend felt it would be nice to take advantage of my already fragile marriage and slept with my husband.
So, you could say I have a ton bottled up. and no one to talk with about it.
And now you know the truth.
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